I have always been prone to worrying and being anxious, but since I moved here it has been out of the roof and most of the time I haven’t been able to control my emotions.

I have to make the best out of my situation right now. I have three months left in Brighton, and it’s time I make things right for myself. I need to start doing things for me, instead of being the people pleaser that I have always been. 

It's inhuman to not have bad days, but it’s also not normal to feel this way all the time. I need to choose what to worry and be anxious about. i can’t let such small things take up all this time and energy in my life anymore.

I have a lot of things to be happy about, I just need to learn how to focus on them instead :)

It doesn’t matter how good you are at writing. To put your feelings into words is one of the hardest things to do, especially when you’re not sure how you’re feeling and why.

To move and study abroad has been one of my biggest goals since I was about fifteen. Now I have done all of that, but I haven’t been happy ever since I came to Brighton. That’s not me being negative, that’s me facing the facts. The first step to recovery is acknowledging your issues, which I have lately. 

In all honesty, I have nothing to be sad about. I have everything I need to live a good life; I have a house to live in, I am educating myself and I have distinction grades, I have family and friends and people that care about me. But still, something is not right. 

When I think about it, I don’t know when and why I started feeling this way. Is it a life crisis? Identity crisis? Or is it the 'winter depression’ that most of us face every year? If I knew what was causing me to feel like this, it would be much easier for me to deal with. But I don’t know where to start, and that’s the problem.

Whether or not Brighton has been a good place for me, I have learnt a lot of things since I came here, which I will always be grateful for. I went from being a very homebound and careful girl to facing the real world all by myself and I am still here and I’m still doing alright :)